“Jonah, we need to talk.”
Jonah just barely finished saying hello
before I cut him off. He was still in the doorway entering our
apartment when he paused to scrunch his lips at my request. It was
later than usual, but I could tell he was coming straight from work
because he was still wearing his Ray-Ban eye glasses, which he only
did when he spent hours in front of a screen writing.
“Okay...” His voice drifted as he
shut the door behind him. I waited for him to walk over to the empty
dinner table. He pulled out a chair and gestured for me to sit and
then did the same. Jonah's elbows perched up on the table as he
folded his arm, one over the other. “...Shoot.”
I inhaled a long breath and slowly
blinked my eyes for emphasis. “You're mom called...”
I wasn't even finished with my sentence
before his ears perked up and he immediately jumped to conclusions.
“Is she okay? What happened?”
I held up my hand and smirked. “She's
fine” He sunk back into his chair waiting for me to continue.
“She...I don't know how to say this.” I bit my lip as I tried to
figure out the right words to say. Jonah's chin jolted forward in
anticipation. I sighed and just blurted it out any which way it came.
“She wants me to convert, like, before the baby and the wedding.”
“She said that?” Jonah looked at me
confused.
“She suggested I take a more
serious,” I air quoted the word “look into considering it
because I'm not the only one it'll be affecting.”
Jonah sighed and rubbed his forehead
before he took off his glasses and began rubbing his eyes. The
mumbles under his breath were barely audible.
I waited a few seconds for him to wrap
his head around it, but he still hadn't said anything.
“So...” I tapped my fingers on the
table. “Crazy right?”
“I don't know” He declared. “I
don't know” he repeated. And then again a couple more times. The
palm of his hands laid on the table has he pushed himself up off the
chair.
“Where are you going?” I asked,
confused. “We're not done talking.”
Jonah was already half way to our
bedroom. He turned around. “Anything other than conversion talk?”
I thought about it for a second, “no”
“Okay” He took his shirt off as he
continued on his way to the bedroom. “I have to take a shower.
We'll talk about this later.”
All I wanted was a little bit of
thought from Jonah's end to help me figure out where I should even
start with my decision. Looks like I wasn't going to get what I was
searching for. I dropped my head onto my folded arms as I groaned.
The next morning I tried to get a hold
of Jaime. He didn't answer my call and I knew he wasn't working. I
hadn't seen him since the incident at his parents place the week
before. I wanted to make sure everything was okay and maybe, if the
moment was right, tell him about my run in with Henry.
I grabbed a box of doughnuts and a
couple of coffees before I headed up to his apartment where I waited
for him to answer his door.
I knocked again. Silence.
I was starting to get worried when I
remembered Jaime kept a spare key hidden on top of his door frame. I
put my things down and jumped up to grab it. Although my pregnancy
weight still wasn't visible, it was the first time I definitely felt
it.
I unlocked the door and opened it
slowly hoping to see Jaime, but he wasn't there. The place looked
like someone was living there, so it's not like he ran off without me
knowing. I sighed as I left the box of doughnuts and his coffee on
his kitchen counter and walked away.
That's when I heard a noise. I turned
towards Jaime's bedroom and began walking in its direction. “Jaime?”
I called out and I heard a noise again. I felt like I was maybe two
and a half seconds away from panicking. For all I knew someone could
have beaten Jaime up and left him tied up in his bedroom. “Jaime!”
I called out louder this time.
His bedroom door was slightly open, so
I very cautiously pushed the door and stood back in anticipation of
fighting off some sick freaky serial rapist who was torturing my best
friend.
“Oh my God!” I yelled as I covered
my face with my hands. The last thing I was expecting, and yet the
most logical, was seeing Jaime in bed with Henry. Thankfully nothing
was going on, but just the thought that I invaded their privacy took
me back.
“Lynn?” Jaime called out as he
jumped out of bed and threw a t-shirt on.
“Oh my God” I repeated. “This is
deja vu! I'm so sorry, J! I'm leaving, I'm leaving!” My face was
still covered as I backed away to the front door.
I heard Jaime's voice laugh as his hand
grabbed my arm and pulled it away from my face. “It's okay.” He
reassured me. “We were just sleeping...see.” I looked over his
shoulder to see Henry still in bed, silent, as his chest rose and
fell with each breath. He was sound asleep.
“Oh”
“What's going on?” He asked when he
finally realized I was in his apartment.
“I tried calling you” He obviously
hadn't seen his phone yet by the way he furrowed his brow. “I
knocked too and I got worried when you didn't answer. I thought maybe
someone hurt you, or I don't know, maybe you hurt yourself.”
Jaime smiled again. “Why would I hurt
myself?”
I widened my eyes and looked around.
Did he really already forget? “Uh, Jaime, your dad wasn't exactly
welcoming you with open arms.”
“Oh” he rubbed the back of his head
and sighed. “That”
Jaime went back over to close his
bedroom door so Henry wouldn't wake up and the two of us sat in his
living room talking about what had happened.
Jaime went on to tell me how he and his
mom went back inside to try opening up a little more to his dad,
which he did eventually come around, but he still wasn't as accepting
of his son as he needed to be.
“I'm sorry” I shrugged my shoulders
not knowing what else to say to make him feel better. “So, what's
happening here?” I pointed towards his bedroom where Henry was
still sleeping.
Jaime rolled his eyes. “Don't ask”
“You know I saw him the other day.
He's still with Jebrone.”
“I know...”
“Wasn't the whole point of this...”
Jaime cut me off, “It's complicated.
Let's just leave it at that. Speaking of complicated how are things
with Mr. Show Biz?”
It was my turn to roll my eyes. “We
told his family about the baby this weekend. His mom ended up calling
me yesterday and told me I should start thinking more seriously about
converting.”
“Wow” Jaime lifted his brows.
“That's heavy stuff...I mean, if it even matters to you.” I gave
him a look and he went on to explain. “If you're not a religious
person than why not? Maybe it'll open your eyes to something new. Or at least you can be supportive of your kid. I mean she'd kinda right, it's gonna have an affect. The moment you become pregnant it's no longer about you.”
We sat and talked through all the
possibilities and different scenarios of things that could turn from
either decision I made.
Before I left Jaime's place that
morning I'd gotten a text from Jonah asking if I wanted to go to
dinner. So, that night I met him at our favorite Italian restaurant
in the Meat Packing District.
We had already placed out orders when
Jonah suddenly cleared his throat and leaned forward.
“I'm sorry we couldn't talk about
this last night..” He reached over and grabbed my hand. He looked
down at it as he played with my fingers. “I just really needed to
sleep on it and figure out how I really felt.”
“I'm not asking you to make the
decision for me, Jonah.” I placed my hand over his. “I just want
to know how you feel.”
He sighed. “I feel like it's asking a
lot.”
“But?” I knew by the expression on
his face that there was so much more he wanted to say.
“I'd like if you considered it. I
thought about it a lot and I want my son, or daughter, to grow up
with the same culture, traditions, experiences as I did, you know
what I mean?”
I couldn't blame Jonah, his life
involved way more religious events than mine ever could. It just
wasn't something my parents where big about. There was the occasional
church visit, but that's as far as it went.
Jonah looked up at me with longing
eyes. “It would mean the world to me if we were all able to share
them together.”