Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Let It Go

Hey girl, I'm working the early shift. Don't wait up for me at group.

I read Kylie's text message as I walked into Central Park. In the distance I could see everyone was already there. It looked like I was the last one to join, so I did a slow jog over.

“Whoa, slow down Lynn! It's not like we're waiting on you to get started or anything.” Everyone laughed as Jonah winked at me, the smile slowly growing on his face.

“Ugh” I rolled my eyes as I stood next to him waiting for Jeff's instructions. “You're not funny.”

He whispered back, “Where's your friend? The fan-girl? I bet she'd think I'm hilarious.”

As much as I tried to hold back, I let out a slight laugh. Kylie was a little over-the-top obvious about having a thing for Jonah in the few minutes that she'd known him.

“Okay” Jeff gestured for everyone to huddle around him. “Today we're gonna do a full body workout, so grab a mat and a partner, and let's go!”

Everyone squirmed around to partner up. I wasn't too fond of anyone in group since Kylie and I were always together. I approached a few people, but I was too late. They had already found someone. One by one everyone left until it was just me and Jeff.

“I guess we're odd since Kylie is gone.” I began walking away to grab a yoga mat when Jeff stopped me.

“There's still one more person.” He raised his eyebrows and looked over at Jonah, who was standing exactly where I'd left him. He tried to make his face expressionless, but it was obvious he was holding something back, whether a smart comment, smile, or laugh.

Everyone grabbed a mat and headed over to a shaded area of the park. We began our workout with a few light stretches. It would've been great if they didn't subtly resemble sexual poses.

I laid down, facing forward, as Jonah's body hovered over mine, pulling my leg back. “I bet you're enjoying this”

“I can't even deal right now” He said in a valley girl accent.

I covered my face, hiding my laugh.

“Why are you doing this, Lynn?” I uncovered my eyes to look at him. His mood was suddenly serious. He released my right leg and switched over to stretch my left leg.

“Doing what?”

“Stopping yourself from letting go.” His face was a foot away from mine, but it was turned away and his eyes were settled on the scenery around us. “If you want to laugh, then just laugh. You don't have to hate me just because we're not together.”

“I don't hate you, Jonah.” I pushed my leg down and sat upright. “You told me you were going to give me my space.” I gestured to the lack of distance between us, “this isn't called giving me my space.”

Jeff walked over and interrupted our conversation. “Done stretching? Give me 25 sit ups, 25 throw downs, and 25 side-to-sides, and then switch.”

Jonah laid on his back. I sat by his feet, holding them down, as he did his sit ups. “I get it Jon, with our luck, we're bound to run into each other. And that's fine, I can manage, honestly. But, it's hard when you keep throwing the reminder in my face.”

He slowed down in mid sit up.“I just want it to be normal again.”

“If you want it to be normal, then you have to act normal. I can't be the girl you're trying to win back. That's only going to push me away.”

He let out a deep breath as he went back to doing his sit ups. There was a few seconds of silence before he responded. “Fine, I'll act normal if you'll promise to just let it go.”

“You can call me Elsa, cause I've officially 'Let it Go'” I laughed at my own joke.

Jonah stopped what he was doing and stared at me, unamused. “I can't believe you just said that.”

“Oh, come on! It was funny!” I pushed his knees, knocking them down.

“Let's just stick to our professions, alright?” He went back to working out. “You can be the humorless doctor, and I'll stick to being America's sweetheart that everyone finds hilarious.”

I wasn't sure how I felt about having to constantly see Jonah while I was still trying to sort my feelings out, but if it was going to fill the void and bring us back to being friends, it was something I was willing to do. I just had to remind myself to avoid making the same mistakes.

I had gotten a text from Kadie while I was at the park. She had finally found the location for her new office and wanted me to swing by to check it out.

I went home to take a quick shower and then headed over.

The elevator doors slid open and she and Adam greeted me with a glass of champagne. There was already a cleaning crew fixing up the place.

The floors and walls where concrete with exposed pipes on the ceiling. It was very industrial and modern. Two walls of the office were completely glass windows with a perfect view of Columbus Circle and Central Park.

“What do you think?” Kadie asked, trailing after me.

“This is insane”I gasped at the view. “Congratulations!” I spun around to see a beaming smile on Kadie's face. Either she was, rightfully, over excited about her new venture, or there was something she wasn't telling me.

I looked over at Adam, his eyes were glued to Kadie. “What's going on?” I asked.

“Well, we have some more news to share.”

“Okay” I said slowly, unsure of what was going on.

“I just got named partner at my law firm.” Adam spoke proudly.

I gasped and covered my mouth and then gave Adam a hug. “Adam! That's amazing!! Congratulations, you deserve it!”

“That isn't it” Kadie spoke quickly, almost to steal my attention away.

I shot my head towards Kadie and she held up her left hand.

There, on her finger, sat a huge chunk of a diamond. “Adam proposed last night! We're getting married!”


  1. I feel like Kadie & Adam haven't really been togethet long enough to warrent a proposal.. but I can't say I didn't see it coming. Great post, just wish it had been a little longer or have more details, or story...something seemed to be missing!

    1. I disagree, every relationship is different. My husband and I got engaged after 4 months and have been together for 6 years so far. If it feels right, go for it!

    2. I think it felt right. I always got the vibe from adam that he was getting to that point in his life and it was right with Katie. I think it was a great surprise.

    3. Totally agreed with Anonymous. I guess what Jess was saying is that in a story, we're kind of looking for the whole work up to the proposal.
      Still loved this post and sometimes you don't need to do the conventional in writing.

    4. They've been together long enough to start a company together. I think marriage is almost as much of a commitment. LOL

  2. Love Jonah! I want him for myself��

  3. From previous posts it's pretty obvious that Connor and Lynn were over before Jonah came back and it's also obvious that she still has feelings for Jonah so I don't really understand what she has to work out.

  4. I like how Lynn is taking time for herself but also not sure why she is shutting Jonah out so much. It's obvious she still has a thing for him or her wouldn't rattle her so much. I wonder how long she will be able to stay away?

  5. Yeah! How long can Lynn resist Jonah??
    Congrats to Kadie & Adam !! I just knew an engagement was coming!! I mean they already live together so why not ?!

  6. I can't wait until Lynn and Jonah fall for each other again... Esp since it seems like we aren't gonna hear from Connor anytime soon!

  7. After I read this post I went back to read a few posts from the beginning. Lynn has come such a long way but I'm so excited Jonah's back in her life!! The banter between the two is just the cutest thing ever and I always blush as if he's talking to me WHY CANT JONAH BE REAL?? you're doing a great job!

  8. Yes. I am so happy about that! No such thing as too fast of a proposal!